Apakah?

Dear Z,

You appeared in my dream a few days ago.
I seldom dream, so it was a surprise of sort to have you entering my dream.
It's not like I was thinking of you or anything
In fact, when I woke up, I wondered why you of all people.

In my dream, you told me, "I'm marrying a beautiful girl. She's a lot younger than you. Prettier. Kinder"


I frowned. Perplexed.


You continued, "She could accept me for who I am. Unlike you. You quickly jumped to conclusion upon hearing about me from other people. You did not give me any chance to tell my side of story. You refused to listen to my explanation. You must think that you are better than me. Well, let me tell you that you are no better than me. And I am marrying someone better than you."

Astaghfirullahal'azim...
I woke up before I could respond to that.
Which was kind of frustrating, despite it being a silly "mainan tidur".
(I guess I forgot to wash my feet before going to be the previous night...)

Anyway Z, I want you to know that initially what I heard from others about you was really shocking, that I guess it wouldn't be wrong for you to assume that I looked at you with disdain back then. But that was not for long. I was later reminded by a friend that we are only human and we all make mistakes, and it is not for us human being to judge others. Only Allah has the right to judge us, His creations. And who are we to look down upon others when Allah might have forgiven that person for all his or her wrong doings by accepting his or her taubat, where else there is no guarantee as yet that Allah might have accepted our own taubat.

So Z, if it's true that you are getting married (finally!) to someone who is younger, prettier, kinder, better than me - that's good for you. I'm happy for you. Alhamdulillah.

I want you to know that I do not think that I'm better than you. I have no right to think such thought. We are all equal and the only thing that could differentiate us is taqwa, yet only Allah knows where we stand in terms of taqwa. I am sorry if I have left a different impression on you before. I apologize for all my wrongdoings, and I make doa that we will always be blessed and guided to the right path.

You take good care bro.